young&TRILL

   One thing I will not tolerate ever again is being someone’s sideline guy. It’s an all or nothing deal with me and if you’re not going to be 100% with me than forget about it. I’m not into sharing or none of that shit and at the end of the day I have to respect myself. That’s a dumbass move on my part if I was to stick around even though I was nothing more than an option. I can only put my own effort in for so long and if that’s not enough than I’m over it. I cherish commitment and loyalty, and if that’s not there than it’s obvious it’s going to go no where.

I miss the feeling of having someone to vent to. I have a phone full of numbers but it’s hard to find someone who genuinely understands whatever it is you’re going through because a lot of times people just try to act like they understand to get stuff out of you.

   I’ve never put my guard this down for anyone and I wish you could realize that. I wish you would be able to see how down I really am for you and how much I want to see you happy. I want to be the one there to cheer you up when no one else can. In the past, I wasn’t really sure what I wanted and I just went with the flow. It genuinely seemed like I didn’t care but this time it’s different because I’m decisive and I’m chasing after what I want. I’m not the type AT ALL to fall for just anyone but when I do, it’s hard.

Tennis season is over

It feels so weird to say that it’s over. Everything started from January and now it’s done! I’m going to miss being at the courts and playing. Tennis really did get my mind off of so much that goes on in my life. The first two months I was horrible, but with dedication, confidence, and a lot of help from my teammates I gradually got a little better. I learned so much on how to stay dedicated to something and get my priorities in life straight. I had times where I felt like giving up but I’m glad I stuck with it. Feels good to have been active, but now it’s over. I’m forever grateful for everyone who helped me out.

If at any point I feel like I’m being taken for granted or being an option, I’m going to back off. I’m not going to be someones sideline guy… what the hell. As independent of a person I am, if I’m into someone I’m passionate about it. I’ve learned from my past to always have respect for myself before making a fool out of myself, so I’m never going to make myself someone’s option. It’s all or nothing with me.

Just a kid

People seem to forget my age nearly all the time. I’m have so many high expectations on what kind of person I should be, how I should act, and what kind of success I should bring when really it all gets a bit too much to handle. I’m flattered by the people who genuinely care, but I don’t understand why other people who are irrelevant to my life try to tell me how to live it. I try my hardest at everything, so please don’t act like you were perfect at my age.

I’m just a kid and I’m still learning new things and figuring things out, so please don’t rush me.

MIND YA OWN BUSINESS

It’s so annoying how people stay tripping about other people’s business. If it clearly doesn’t pertain to you, than why do you care? Stop trying to find a reason to hate and learn some manners instead of sitting back and judging another person.